- 10:37 Drowning my sorrows in booze #
anxiousDrawbridge
To see a drawbridge in your dream, represents protection. You may feel that some relationship or situation is too invasive. It may also mean that you are drawing the line and creating boundaries.
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accomplished"Today is Tuesday, my early day. A day, I for once, started bright and early. I woke up at 7, that's the asscrack of dawn for me. I can't remember the last time I saw 7 am and that doesn't include the times that I've been awake b/c
I hadn't gone to sleep the night before. I just reminded myself of college, all night study sessions with a 3am Dunkin Donuts run. There isn't any place here I can get up in the middle of the night and get coffee from. Maybe if I was in Seoul, but unfortunately coffee in the SK pretty much sucks. Mcdonalds is usually open 24 hrs and the coffee there isn't half bad, but there isn't one in my town (makeshift city). Been doing a bit of reading, I've discovered the joys of
audiobooks. Though it's pretty slow going, I don't have enough time during the week to listen as often as I would like, I do try to snatch 5 minutes every so often while I am at work. Speaking of work, it has been pretty great actually. I really like my job, my boss is awesome, the kids are awesome, for the most part. I may not look forward to going to work everyday- work is a chore, but most days I don't dread it. Although, lately I have had a few days where I want to throw up my hands in frustration and say, "Yeah, stick me with a fork, I'm done!". But I guess most
jobs are like that, everyone has those days. I miss home, and I miss my friends. I miss the library, I miss
hot guys to look at, cuz in the SK the pickings are mighty slim. I miss outdoor cafes- my town has one and it is
always crowded, and there are only two tables outside. I don't go to Seoul as often as I used to, since I live a bit
further and it costs a whopping 4 bucks each way to get out there, so I only go if I am going to spend an entire day
there. Lately my weekends have been crowded with outings, get-togethers and b-day parties. On the one hand I want to rest, on the other hand I really need the variety/excitement to break the monotony of just working
and working constantly. But I think I need a real vacation from all this working.
-end part one-"
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If you are mired down with tough interpersonal issues at home, it may be time to consider a completely different approach. Even if your past is weighing on a current situation, you don’t have to stay in the same old rut. Although you may feel quite comfortable in a familiar situation, you may need more than just security.
How right you are.
I took a breath, stood back and let him go.
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I hate to admit it, but I am. Well maybe I really am not… I like to be assured of things before I get myself ready for them. I don’t like disappointment, but who does? And so when I have to wait till the last minute for my reassurance, it forces me to act at the last minute. I’ve been looking for a job back in South Korea for a hot minute. And I finally found something that I am looking forward to doing, though it is a bit farther away from Seoul than I want to be, though it still takes almost the same amount of time to get there by bus. This city is a bit smaller. The air is cleaner, it’s actually has parks- those who live in bigger cities might know how hard it is to find a good park (maybe I am biased because NYC is filled with small neighborhood parks, many attached to elementary schools). I would like to take up jogging in the morning, I was scared to do it in Suji (last city I lived in) since I lived on the main street and I didn’t want to breathe in exhaust form the morning commuters, plus I’m shy, I don’t need more people staring at me. Don’t worry I will certainly take a million pictures. I need to update my flicker - well do a little organizing before I leave because I am only allowed a certain number of pictures and when i go over they push out the old pictures.
It’s going to be a long and busy week for me. All the waiting and waiting, but last night I got my eticket, I’m leaving on Monday on a Delta (Koreanair) flight. I love Koreanair. The planes are really nice, spacious seating, the attendants are nicer and I love their uniforms (i wonder if they’ll serve Kimchi on the planes). Oh and free drinks, when I flew back on American Airlines they charged for booze. That was very upsetting.
I do like the excitement of rushing and last minute planning, it’s just the kind of drama I need in my life. I hate drama, anyone who has met me has usually commented on my calmness, which is true, but everyone needs some sort of excitement…I think its why I like to move around so much, why I like to travel. I like new things.
I am planning my Nano novel (National Novel Writing Month). Should be fun. I’ve done it three years in a row, this will be my fourth. Last year I couldn’t finish ( I didn’t even get to 10,000 words), my job was so stressful, time consuming and frustrating, I didn’t have the time or energy. Also, I didn’t do much planning. Second year, same thing, no planning, I didn’t make it. The first year I did complete the 50,000 word goal, didn’t finish story, but met the goal. What was different then? I planned. I really really planned and plotted. I had tentative chapters, I knew where I wanted my characters to go (or they had not so gently informed me of where they wanted and needed to go) and it was all written down. So this time ’round I’m doing it that way. I will miss the gatherings, since the people I’ve met who do Nano are so awesome and helpful. Some of them formed a writing group that I’ve gone to a couple times since I’ve been home. I really enjoy it, it get’s me writing, which is the point, and it also gives me practice with critiquing, though I don’t do much, because I’m still unsure as how to put it in words, but as I watch the others do it, it makes me see the things that I also should be picking up as I read things. Sometimes I feel myself reading things not as critically as I used to, as with movies, there’s a lot of shit out there and if you have no expectations you can’t be disappointed. I’m trying to dig deeper. The farther away from college, or any kind of educational pursuits I think the harder it becomes. These are skills we don’t use everyday (unless that’s your job) and when you don’t use things they are easily forgotten (like my french skills- I used to be so good… 
).
Anyway, just wanted to post since I haven’t written in a while, yes I still blog/journal/whateva. I’m still alive. Busy, but alive, still hoping, dreaming, yearning, looking…for what? I still have no idea (I’m getting too old to still have no idea I think), but I’m trying to do the damn thing.
Ciao (anyeong - 안 영)
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Obviously I saw Transformers, it was really good, far better than I expected, though had I kept up on the Transformers as I was growing up maybe I wouldn’t think it was so good, it was certainly entertaining though.
I’m back in the city, been home for about a week now, been so busy catching up with friends and eating (Pizza, Chinese Food, going to get some Sushi later today yum!) that I haven’t managed to update this blog. Also I have a crappy wireless connection at home and am at the Tea Lounge (what an awesome place) in Park Slope. Its so crowded on a Sunday.
I’m trying to figure out what to do with the rest of my summer, keeping myself entertained without working and trying not to spend too much money, what am I going to do after the summer is over- go back to South Korea? or stay home? I’m leaning to going back to South Korea, just once more and then when I come back be ready to settle down and figure out what to do with my life, be ready to move into a new apt when I get back.
I do miss Korea, I miss my friends there and some other things. But I missed home more and am glad to be back. Gotta make new friends here though cuz my old friends still leave me wanting more… There are just some things that I like to do now that they aren’t in to. My birthday’s coming up and I have no idea what to do, Happy Belated to the few people I didn’t manage to write a note to on LJ. I think I want to go to the beach sometime during the wee to relax a bit and tan a bit, I have managed to avoid getting a tan and it’s time that I got one
My best friend is getting married next summer, I told her I would try to design her invitations for her, wish me luck, I also have a bachelorette party to plan as well. And I have no idea what kind of party to have though I’m thinking of a slumber party kinda of theme…
It makes me wonder if I’m ever going to get married (at this rate that would be a huge NO!) it’s not looking like I’m ever going to be planign a wedding of my own. Wierd I never really thought about getting married, or sure, I figured I’d have kids sooner or later and have a husband (sometimes) but I never sat down and pictured the actual wedding day…(maybe I’m a freak).
Ciao
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Saturday certainly put me in mind of this song.
On Friday The Big Cheese decides that he will take us all to Everland for the day,for a chance to bond. Well should have known the day wouldn’t be that great since: a. My boss was going and b. the times we were going to meet the next morning kept changing.
Saturday morning rolls around, we’re supposed to get picked up at our homes at 910 in the am. at 830 I get a message to be at the school at 920. Sure, fine, not a big deal (though we still have to drive past our homes to get to the place). So most of us get there at the appointed time and we still end up waiting for another 35 minutes for the boss to get there and get us.
It takes us an hour to get there, we get there at like 11 and wait 45 minutes to get tickets…no one knows what the boss was doing since it rally shouldn’t have taken that long to get inside of the park. We walk around for a bit, away from the bosses, get on a few rides and then meet up for lunch. After lunch we walk around for a bit and decide that we are ready to leave, we haven’t seen the boss since we got in the park. Turns out he left us and we would have to take the bus back…um he left his wife at the park too…
Apparently there was some “emergency” at school (on a saturday, we don’t open on saturdays…) I think he had a fight with the wife, since they do that a lot, and in school, in front of the students, so unprofessional. So we all have to find our way back home, on our own, it’s great,real sketchy. 
Anyway it’s Monday, hooray, and I have about two weeks left to go, thank the gods, I’m so ready to get the hell out of dodge.
Been busy lately though, went on a Buddhist Temple Stay, saw Paul Van Dyke in concert, went to Everland, the Aquarium, watched movies, caught up on Dr. Who (love it) and Heroes and Supernatural and attempting to pack for the trip home. I have to pack up what I want to store and what I want to bring back home with me. ~ Since I will be coming back for one more year 
haven’t found a job yet, but finding a job in Korea is pretty easy. I’m thinking about getting a real host and domain name so I don’t have to deal with the ads and pop-ups on this page, it’s getting annoying. And it’ll give me more options with things too.
This weekend will be going to see Hernan Catteneo, have no real idea who he is, will have to listen to something of his before I go, but Jeremy wants to go and we had a lot of fun at the Paul Van Dyke concert and I really miss going out and hearing live music.
First thing I’m going to do when i get home: Get a cell phone 
then do some visiting.
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I just asked one of my students, “What do pandas eat?”
to which the little girl replied, “Bamboo”. Which is quite correct. But the little boy couldn’t hear what she said, so he asked, “Bang-gu?”
Me and the little girl burst out laughing, Bang-gu in Korean is poo. Pandas eat poo. They are about 7yrs old, it was totally cute 
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I need to create a new playlist with this title.
I love cloudy days, I wish I would have brought my camera with me as I rode to school (been awhile, so I have failed to mention that about 3 weeks ago I bought a bike 
) There is something about cloudy days, the colors seem to be more vibrant to me against the grey sky. I feel like I am more awake, like I can see more things, or it could just be that the air seems less polluted on these days which is why I am under the impression that I can see farther than on sunny days.
The Playlist:
for starters…
…still have photos to album and link and also have to write about my caving trip.
Other than that just been spending time with friends, going out to eat, going out to drink. Finally, after 9 months here, found the fabric market, will go again this weekend so I will remember to bring my camera to take pics. I’m thinking about getting a polaroid camera. I used to have one as a kid, poloroid pics are kinda cool. They have these mini poloroid camera’s here, well they are huge as hell but the print on mini sheets like the mini kodak cameras but the polaroid ones are a little bit bigger. The cherry blossoms have bloomed so it’s time to break out the 35mm cam again and start taking pics. I haven’t been taking it on my weekend outings to Seoul because I usually end up hanging out all night (not lately though) and don’t want to have to lug around a big camera, plus I’m afraid it may get stolen if I set it down somewhere.
Been having a good time here. Been trying to find more music, finally found a korean group I dig -Epik High, they are pretty awesome, kind of a hip-hop thing going on.
I should be writing up my report cards so ciao for now.
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Been pretty busy laely, will update soon, no I haven’t forgotten about this place :smile:
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I’m beginning to hate this place a little bit more everyday. Every time we have a meeting I feel like the Director is giving us more and more reponsibility for the things he is supposed to be doing. Oh, four more months, one day at a time, one day at a time…I have my class of 7 year olds, I hate it so much, next year it’s only High School and adults.
Inside I am screaming.
I thought I saw a ghost today. I walked out of my apt and saw the Ajumma cleaning. She was right in front of the door, I looked up, saw her, it didnt register and looked again and screamed. Not a loud blood curdling scream, but a scream nonetheless and i jumped and covered my mouth like some old biddy in an old gothic tale. It was funny when I thought about it afterwards though.
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I switched to Soy Milk. I like it! I grew up on the stuff as a kid, then starting drinking regular milk. Then as an adult tried soy milk again, nearly gagged, it tasted like pretty gross. One of my coworkers told me that brand makes a difference so I tried some here and it was quite tasty. It’s also warm. The stores here (equ. to out Bodegas) have these juice warmers so you can always buy bottled tea and coffee and milk (:P) that are warm. Life savers when I was sick and not home and didnt want to spend 3 bucks on a tea at a coffeeshop.
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